Today I am in that painful place of having insight and understanding but not change. I’ve been working through some things and had great moments of “Aha, now I’ve got it.” I see why I do it; I know where it comes from; I know what change would look like, but grrrr…I’m not doing the new behavior. Frustrating.
It’s not integrated. It feels like I have the understanding in my head but it has not “dropped down” into my heart or body.
My prayer is to get what is in my mind to integrate with my body and behavior.
I think this is also the “X” factor in Steps 6 and 7.
In this equation “X” equals God.