Yesterday a friend spoke at the Saturday meeting. He’s been
sober a long time and in recovery he learned to sail and bought himself a sail
boat. His face fills with light when he says the word, “sailing”. He told the
group that a couple of years ago, at a craft sale, he found a stained glass sun
catcher that is a picture of a sailing boat inside a bottle. He hung this in
his kitchen window and each morning, when he has his coffee, he is reminded that
his love of sailing was hidden for years inside his bottles of booze.
It got me thinking: What is trapped in my bottle? What is trapped in your
addiction? In your box of cookies? In your pill box? In your codependence? Is
your artist trapped in your husband’s sock drawer? Is your love of dance
trapped in your daughter’s struggle? Is your freedom trapped in your ex-wife’s
new life? Is my next book trapped in my obsession with his ex?
Picture that bottle—it could represent any addiction.--and
even after years of recovery we all still have something. What’s trapped in
there? You may know or you may be in for a wonderful surprise when that bottle,
box of candy or too long work schedule breaks open and spills its secret
delights like a big piñata.
Yes, there are painful things inside our addictions—stuff we
don’t want to feel or think about or remember --but like the sailboat in a
bottle we also have talents and treasures and dreams in there too. There are
gifts hidden in our addictions that will light up our faces just like my
friend’s face light up when he says the word, “sailing.”
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