Today is my birthday. I am 55. I have been in recovery 25 years of this life. I have been sober and abstinent and facing my fears and dealing with “issues” and working steps and making amends and going to therapy with a more or less clear head for 25 years.
Many days over these years--and many days this week --I can only see what is still broken, how much fear runs me, how many bad decisions I make, how much I am addicted to something. But today, sober, abstinent, loving, taking care of a man I love, taking care of me, speaking up, making wise decisions, taking time to pray, to write and to thank God, I do see that something has happened and is happening in my life. I am sober and in recovery and grateful.